The Renegade Press

Tales from the mouth of a wolf

You may have noticed that a sudden lull of activity has fallen over this site in the past couple of weeks. My postings were becoming more frequent, more concise, and increasingly positive. I was writing like a one man orchestra. I set a pace and flow by waving a baton rhythmically before my eyes as posts of positivity and tolerance followed a percussive beat like a drum. My self-reflection rose like a melodious crescendo of woodwinds and strings, before tapering off in a diminuendo as I offered peace to an intellectual foe whose opinions challenged my own.  Talk of hustling towards a dream crashed like cymbals and a new perspective on life threaded everything together with the solidarity of brass.

Then came the silence; so abrupt that the absence of sound was deafening.

It’s happened many times before on this site. I’ve written and produced, gaining thunderous momentum before falling off of a precipice and into a void of nothingness. In the past when such an event has occurred it was due in part to self-sabotage. Whether deliberate or not, I’ve had a nasty habit of destroying everything that I’ve strived so hard to create. At one point I even wrote an article calling for my own self assassination of character as a means of fuelling my own destruction. But this time things are a little bit different…

…I have been busy. And I have been keeping a secret from you.

Want to hear it? It goes like this:

I signed a publishing agreement and I’ve been ensuring that the work I submit through to my new publisher is the very best writing that I can produce.  Yep, you read that correctly. After about eight years of half-hearted attempts at trying to become a published author I did the unthinkable: I refused to give up, worked my arse off and actually managed to achieve something grand.

The recent silence; the one that’s seen a complete lack of activity on this site since January 20t.; it doesn’t symbolise the drawing of curtains on my short lived orchestra of positivity. Rather it’s an intermission; a moment’s reprieve to pause and reflect on every success and failure that has led me to this point before the orchestra of the wolf transitions from protasis into epitasis and the fun really begins.

It’s a bold statement to make. To suggest that I am finally moving beyond the beginning of my writing journey after eight years of toiling away at manuscripts and failed attempts to become an author seems both bold and daunting. From the very moment I started writing I dreamed of being published, so when I signed my publishing agreement I felt this strange mixture of elation and despair race through my chest as I had one of those where to from here moments.  I’d become so focused on achieving that one objective that I’d failed to see beyond that. I had no plans of where I wanted my journey as a writer take me past that initial act of seeing my work in print.

So my page fell dormant, and the orchestra of the wolf fell silent as I prepared my manuscript for publication and sat in contemplation at where I was headed next. Even now I still don’t know exactly what direction my career is going to take. I’ve been toying with numerous ideas for new projects and have been offered a few opportunities to moonlight on various blogs and websites. On top of all of this I’m still anxiously awaiting the day my novel hits bookshelves across the globe. But I want to make one thing very clear to my readers; the silence that has fallen over this site in recent weeks has passed. I’ve picked up my baton, breathed my heavy sigh of relief, and am now preparing to ease my audience into act two.

Watch this space. The world eater in me just tasted success and my one man orchestra is preparing to give audiences across the globe a performance they’ll never forget.

12 thoughts on “Silent Orchestra

  1. Julia Manuel says:

    Hearty congratulations!! Wonderful news ☺

  2. Glynis Jolly says:

    First, Chris, congratulations! That is wonderful news. Secondly, what you’ve revealed has given me encouragement and inspiration. I hope you continue to write here at your blog when you’re able to. 🙂

  3. Whoa! Wonderful. I look forward to your book. Thank you for sharing your journey as you continue to create this new life you want and deep down truly deserve.

  4. I love it! All of it. Thank you for sharing your beautiful news with us. 🙂

  5. Rekha says:

    Wow! congratulations Chris, loved reading this, though missed you and your posts. looking forward to the surprise you are going to spring on us. Till then enjoy every day of the week

  6. mottyl says:

    Congrats to you! I am inspired. I have the same nasty habit as you and I’m just beginning this process. Maybe I’ll meet you in the air someday, and I too won’t be falling off the precipice but flying. Have fun!

  7. Donna says:

    Well done. Put a sign on the self-destruct button that says ‘Do Not Press’ and enjoy the journey!

  8. Tracey says:

    Hard work has paid off, congratulations!

  9. I am glad to hear the good news about your publishing agreement. Congratulations! 🙂
    And thank you for taking the time to like “A Colorful World” and “Living Bridge.”

  10. So excited for you! This is such great news! See… I told you that you were the best writer on WordPress and now your hard work is paying off! Well done! 😉

  11. Your writing does have darkness and intensity (I have been reading your other posts, ie. masks) but you are, indeed, a wonderful writer with powerful skills, imagery, and thoughtful provoking writing. I wish you much success!! Thank you for reading my post.

  12. J.R.Goldrich says:

    Appreciate greatly the use of a symphony as your analogy…you might be interested in my post “Writer’s Block” under “Musings.” I have a “sneaky suspicion” you might be able to relate. Congratulations on your publishing contract! Now, onward. Your words deserve to be read by a wide audience. I will keep my eyes open for your book’s release…

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